The Original"Bae"!

All He wants you to know is that He is here for you. He's Got You!

So let me just start of by saying I have missed blogging so freaking much! It seems like it has been forever but it actually has been forever. (If only there were emoji's on this keyboard to show my sobbing face). For everyone who has supported me, for everyone who constantly asked me," so when are you going to have another blog post", for everyone who asked "Awurama why what’s wrong?" I LOVE YOU ALL! Ya'll are the best!

So much has been going on, even though they are not excuses, but a lot has been going on. On many occasions, I knew God was telling me, "Get up and share your story,share your love and passion with everyone who needs to read it. Give them a dose of Sunshine" but I just wasn't motivated to. I mean I could have made time, but at that point, I felt like it just wasn't worth it. I am human. Before i continue to rant about how miserable i was,can you just for a second admit that God is good? I mean, This God is just amazing. The Baddest and Realest Gee i know. His love! Let me"gist"you on how He blew my mind away, once again.

I was at a space where I felt I needed physical, emotional and "speech "love" in my life. Yes, I was aware that Jesus loves me, but I wanted someone to love me. I was desperate for a physical human being to express and show love to me. I was tired of the "God Love". You'd better not be judging or rolling your eyes at me saying "aye", I mean we have all fallen into such a space before in our lives.

But yes, I was in this space and I was so keen on finding someone to fill me. I needed to feel fulfilled and whole, I needed affirmation that I was worth loving, I needed affirmation that I was beautiful and imperfectly perfect with my flaws. How pathetic Awurama, but yes this was me.

Imagine, I was here telling people to love themselves and to embrace their rainbow with all their different shades and characteristics,that they are loved and cherished by God, but here I was, doing the exact opposite of what God wanted me to do. I did not believe that I was good enough. I wanted someone to prove to me that myself and my rainbow were beautiful and worth loving.

I was in this space. I was in such a negative space. The devil was like" Yooooo, we finally got her guys!" I bet they started throwing a party and everything there, but through all this, God was amazing! God never gave up. He wanted me and needed me.

Long story short, their party was cut really short before they even cut the cake. God proved Himself as always. Saving the day. Taking back what has and always will be rightfully His.

Through all this, I knew He loved me, He kept telling me, but me and my selfish ways just didn't want that. Yet, He never stopped. He did not stop telling me that He loves me. He never stopped reminding me that He was right there. He literally chased me down and I finally gave up.

Throughout this whole time, I wanted someone to chase me, I wanted someone to love me, I wanted someone to remind me of how beautiful I am, I wanted affirmation of all these things when all along this God was chasing me down, literally, as if He was some bounty hunter, but the good kind. He wanted to find me and tell me that He cares, He wanted to be with me. Silly me. Everything I wanted was happening right before my eyes, literally. My fairy tale, but yet, I could not see, i could not see that God wanted me.

I finally stopped and realized that He will always be what I needed. The joy He brought back into my life! He blew my whole mind away. I had been lying to myself that I needed someone to be there for me physically. I told myself that I needed someone to fill that space and void in my life, when all along God was there and He had already started filling it.

My whole life was turned around. I needed to realize that He has and will always be My Original Bae. He will never let me go, He was eager to hear me pour out my heart to Him, cry to Him, tell Him how bad my day was and He would be able to rub my head and give me the best forehead kiss ever, reassuring me that everything is going to be okay. The girl in the image is me, well aside the fact that I’m bigger and my beautiful flabby tummy would have sort of created a gap there, but He holds onto me so tight that the gap doesn’t even show and He wants to hold onto you as tight.

This awesome God, kept blowing my mind away. He literally makes me laugh and BTW, let me tell you!! He is the best "kokonsa" or gisting partner you could ever ask for. Healthy and positive "kokonsa" I mean. He’s not about that life of putting people down.

It took a while, but I finally realized that he was more than what I wanted, He was everything I never had. This man died for me! He died for us! Now tell me, which "Bae" would do this for you? Which bae is the baddest? None of them. This beautiful man gave up His life for you and I so we could have another chance at this thing called life. He is the best cheer leader you could ever ask for. Always proud of me, always cheering me on, always sitting on the sidelines with me, always making me feel special.Anytime I needed Him, He was right there. The one always fulfilling my dreams. No one could, would, will and can ever love me as much as God loves me. My heart was and is still overwhelmed. All I needed to do was to open up my heart to Him. I just needed to remind myself that I did have a Bae, My original Bae, who might i remind you can do exceedingly and abundantly beyond what you ever wanted.

I just want to make it clear to you, that it is okay to feel down and lost sometimes, it is normal. It does not make you less of a Christian,it does not mean you have no purpose. We all have, but do not ever think for a split second that you are not loved. The thought might try to creep back in, but kick it out. Shout it out. Do whatever it is to get it out, just get it out. You are loved. He’s madly in love with you. He is crazy about you.All He needs you to do is open your heart to Him. He loves you around the world, including all eight planets and back again!

"See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know Him."1 John 3:1

You've got this Pumpkin!

Love,DOS.

The Difficult Part!

The Process of Waiting and being Patient in difficult times!

Don't you hope,pray or even wish sometimes you could just skip or fast forward certain days, obstacles, destinations or even activities to get to the main thing? That main goal or destination?,which would definitely be amazing and super exciting when you finally get there or achieve it? I for one know i am one of those people. Sometimes i'm just like''God hurry up and bring Idris Elba to me" lol but that difficult part!! That difficult part of having to actually wait and be patient for the right time, when i would finally meet my future Huba and all he'd be able to say is ''Oh My, where have you been all my life, future Mrs. Elba''. Don't laugh, i am actually very serious lol. But Yh, that difficult part. One of the areas I’m constantly working on is being patient and waiting on God’s timing.

The Bible says in 2 Chronicles 15:7,'' But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded ''.

It is not an easy thing to wait on something and be patient as well whiles you wait. Joyce Meyer once said, ''Patience is not the ability to wait, but how you act whiles you are waiting''.We might know how to wait, but how we act whiles we actually wait is the most important thing and that is Patience.This also determines how we receive what we actually have been asking and praying for.

Imagine you are a 10 year old and your parents make a promise to you that on your 11th birthday, they would get you that Game Boy you have been asking and praying for,for as long as you could remember. From that point till your 11th Birthday, your morning's,afternoon's and evening's are focused on that gadget and how you are going to hold onto it tight,take it everywhere with you and fall madly in love with it. You get agitated and fidgety,always wining about how you want it now because you just cant wait till that day. Maybe sometimes yo say to yourself, ''okay today i would be calm and just wait till my birthday'' and the next second you are screaming''mummy i want it now, i can't wait anymore''.A day that isn't actually the D day comes and you finally receive that Game Boy.

When daddy hands it over to you,it is not complete. It did not come with a charger,a case to put it in or even any disk's to put in to actually play. Then you look up and ask your parents why? and the response is,''well your behavior and how you acted before your birthday was very impatient and we realized you could not wait, so we got it for you earlier due to your nagging and wining, but unfortunately this is what they had so we had to get this''. You were able to wait for other days to pass by, but you were not patient enough to wait for that actual day to come. What if the shop your parents got it from, on that day run out of stock and the new stock would have come the day before your birthday and they would have been selling the limited edition Game Boy's, but due to how you were very impatient, you got the Game Boy alright, but it was not complete, it wasn't what they planned to get for you.

This is how i believe it is with God as well. There might be something you have been asking for, something you have been praying about every day. Every opportunity you get to pray and talk to God about that particular thing but you start to get impatient and you ask God'' God why hasn't it come, why hasn't he or she come?, i can't wait anymore".Then all of a sudden,one day, He finally says, well my child,here you go. Your constant complaining worried me so here you go, this isn't what i had planned to give you,but here you go.If you had waited a bit longer for it,he or she to come in my perfect timing, but oh well, here you go'. The process of waiting and being patient is the difficult part, but at the end of it all, it is worth it.The waiting, the praying, the sitting still and trusting God to blow your mind, at the end, you say to yourself, ''this was definitely worth waiting on Gods time.

God is a good God.His love for His children surpasses our own human understanding. So ask yourself this, why would he intentionally hold something this good from me? Sunni, it isn't that He is holding it back from you, He is preparing you for that amazing thing. He wants it to remind you of His goodness and how true His love for you is anytime you look or receive that blessing.He knows what is good for you, when you should receive it and how you would appreciate it. Be still and know that He is God. Trust in Him. Wait and be patient whiles you wait. it is not easy, i am still learning how to be patient whiles i wait, but when i think about how His blessing is going to blow my entire mind away, i get extra excited and stand still, waiting on Him.

It is the difficult part, but it can be the easiest for you. Continue to stay true to yourself. Hold on, He is going to do it. Mediate on His word, remind yourself of His goodness and prepare your heart for His blessing.

GALATIANS 6:9

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

You got this Pumpkin!

with Love,

DOS!

Embrace your Rainbow!

All your different shades make you perfect!

I hope and believe that the beautiful person who has started reading this, is well aware of how precious and TOTALLY AWESOME he/she is! You are a beautiful ray of light, created by the best artist ever. Smile hard and wide sweetie, show your amazing set of teeth for everyone to see. The world is blessed to have you in it!

So i believe that maybe some of you might be wondering '' Embrace my Rainbow?'' but yes, EMBRACE YOUR RAINBOW!!!

We have all in one way or another, at a certain point in our individual life's, felt we were just not good enough, well i have, many times.

PS If you haven't ever felt like this, then bless your Soul! You rock and God bless your strong heart!

Growing up, i always felt at certain points in my life, that i just wasn't pretty enough, strong enough or nice enough.I just basically, wasn't enough at all. I always, and i mean always, had an issue with myself. There were days where i would look at myself and felt less of a person compared to everybody else. I would ask myself, how could i make myself look better? how could i improve on myself to look like her, to walk or be as beautiful as her. I did not love myself.I depended and relied on people to love me, that was my way of accepting that i was actually worth something. ''Well he/she enjoys my company so i might actually be of some importance''. That validation i could not give myself, i depended on others to validate me. Can you imagine. To my very own self, i needed someone to confirm for me that i was actually OK. Thinking about it now, that was actually a very sad thing to do lol but the truth is, many of us have felt or are feeling this way. we never embraced our rainbow.

The Bible says in Psalm 139:14, ''I will give thanks to you because I have been so amazingly and miraculously made. Your works are miraculous, and my soul is fully aware of this.''

The rainbow is an arch of different colors formed in the sky in certain circumstances ,caused by the refraction and dispersion of the sun's light by rain or other water droplets in the atmosphere. Do you see that? an arch of different colors. These colors are totally different from each other, but they all come together to create something so beautiful and unique.

Embrace your Rainbow. We all have different shades and colors that make us unique from one another, but that is what makes us unique.

I just want to remind you that whatever it is that you lack, God is full of. Not man, but God. The lover of your soul.All your different talents, your flaws, your weaknesses, your ways, all these beautiful things come together to make you, YOU! These different characteristics and attributes which you and only you poses, are what make you special. Embrace your flaws,embrace your freckles, embrace the spots on your body, embrace the way you laugh, embrace the way your hair looks,embrace the scar on your leg or arm, embrace your voice, embrace the way your body looks, embrace your very long or very short fingers (like mine lol) and toes, embrace your long or short legs, embrace all these beautiful things which you find as flaws because that is what makes you YOU.

Love yourself. It took a while, but i finally got there. I still have moments where i might feel insecure about myself,but i try my best to remind myself that i am beautiful in my own special way, even with my double chin and chubby tummy. I am one of a kind and even if i tried to be like someone else, i would indirectly be telling God that His creation, (being me), was a mistake. Appreciate and thank God for how He made you,how He created you, Embrace your different colors.Learn to complement friends and people who you might admire. When we learn to complement one another honestly, we are able to drive away the spirit of not being content with who we are or what we have. It is very important to realize that if the people around you do not encourage you to be content with how you are,to appreciate yourself, or do not remind you of how beautiful you are,even with all your flaws, then my deeeaaaarrr, ''you must to change your friends'' lol. No negative or bad vibe needed wherever you find yourself.

Remind yourself of how much you are loved. God knows why He made you the way you are, you do not need to understand it, all you need to do is work with what you have and how you are. Make a difference wherever you find yourself. Embrace your Rainbow Sunni. Your different colors and shades. Stand out bold. Do not ever criticse yourself. You are the best version of yourself. The world is a much better place because of you.

Continue to stay beautiful and whiles you embrace yours, help others embrace their rainbow.

You got this Pumpkin!

With love,

DOS!

''You are beautiful, I know because I made you.''Love, God.